The Connection Project October 2019
Approximately six months after the first Connection Project Event, I sat at home and thought long and hard about what I was going to do with the project going forward. I decided to just sit with it for a while. When the website domain and email renewal notification showed up in my calendar just a few days later, my answer was a resounding yes! The project very clearly needed to happen again. So I booked the same theatre, with no worry about logistics.
My yes, my why, comes as a result of what evolved within me, those participating in the event and the people whose lives the event and subsequent documentary touched. This evolving came in many forms, the most important of which was the healing through Connection. Not only did the performers and audience connect to one another through their stories, but I believe that on a deeper level, each person was able to recognize their own struggles. Regardless of what that struggle looks like, we ALL feel it. When we don’t feel it, we get sick, addicted, depressed, anxious, and suicidal. We fall out of love with life.
My intention last year was to inspire hope through connection. My intention this year, is JOY.
“Sorrow prepares you for joy. It violently sweeps everything out of your house, so that new joy can find space to enter. It shakes the yellow leaves from the bough of your heart so that fresh, green leaves can grow in their place. It pulls up the rotten roots so that new roots hidden beneath have room to grow. Whatever sorrow shakes from your heart, far better things will take their place.” – Rumi
The Connection Project October 2018
After this incredibly difficult winter, perhaps the hardest in my whole life, I’ve come to a new awareness and understanding about my own experience with mental illness. I’ve discovered I must talk about it, and in talking about it, honor all versions of myself; at all ages, in any emotion, encompassing all inner judgments of self. There is always a space for compassion, there is always a space to love a little deeper.
Since I was 15, I’ve struggled to manage anxiety and depression. At 23, I spent time in a psychiatric ward because of a breakdown, complete with hallucinations, thoughts of suicide and self-harm. During this time, I found my ‘rock bottom.’ I met myself in despair unlike any other.
I want to share how I made my way back from that very lonely place. I realize the many gifts that have come my way because of this experience, and most importantly, that I must share my story, to know that I am not alone.
The Connection Project is an event inspired by all of this. It is my deeply held hope that this event will illuminate our collective journey toward an expanded awareness of our minds.